“You should leave him. It’s not a healthy relationship.” I said to a friend.
“You have to forgive her.” I told another friend.
I curled up in my bed that night and wrapped myself as tight as I could in my favorite blanket welcoming some of the only earthly comfort I know. I positioned my pillow just right and rested softly on the fluffy cotton and satin. I exhaled as my mind began to replay the struggles of the day.
I thought back to the past few months and acknowledged the fire I had been walking through that claimed every ounce of my strength.
My mind came back to my current struggles as I tried to piece the puzzle together to find the best solution. But I couldn't figure this one out.
I looked beside me to the empty space of the rest of my queen size bed and pictured a life with someone next to me; someone to whisper sweet words and remind me that it'll all be okay.
The desire to be close to someone brought to mind exactly how long it’s been since I had someone to wrap their arms around me and love me; someone that needed me just as much as I needed them.
I recalled the moments of life shared as we laughed and planned and hoped together. I recalled the togetherness, the oneness; the partnership and the moments our hearts were open, free to love fully. I recalled the joy we shared in being together when tomorrow didn’t matter and we feared nothing.
Without a warning, the hurt resurfaced and hit me like a freight train. I was reminded of how one incident shattered our lives. How a lie changed us forever. How trust was thrown out the window and how I was easily replaced.
Tears fell uncontrollably and it became hard to breath. Suicide crawled his slimy way to my mind and whispered his sweet answer... “If you did this…he’d finally believe you…”
The hurt continued to rip deep into the hidden parts of my heart; sharp pain began to shoot through my chest. I grabbed a tissue and continued to cry.
~Wow! What an amazing God we serve. His love conquers all. When you realize you’re walking through a fire…just remember that God never said it would be easy but he promised to be right there with us. Don’t stay in your hurt, look up and let God fill you with the love and strength you need to continue walking. Remember that God wastes nothing! There is a mighty purpose for walking through your fire, he will use every tear!
English Standard Version (©2001) Psalms 23:4
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Here's a song for your troubles...
“I’m not strong enough,” she replied.
“You have to forgive her.” I told another friend.
“I’m not strong enough,” she answered.
I curled up in my bed that night and wrapped myself as tight as I could in my favorite blanket welcoming some of the only earthly comfort I know. I positioned my pillow just right and rested softly on the fluffy cotton and satin. I exhaled as my mind began to replay the struggles of the day.
I thought back to the past few months and acknowledged the fire I had been walking through that claimed every ounce of my strength.
My mind came back to my current struggles as I tried to piece the puzzle together to find the best solution. But I couldn't figure this one out.
I looked beside me to the empty space of the rest of my queen size bed and pictured a life with someone next to me; someone to whisper sweet words and remind me that it'll all be okay.
The desire to be close to someone brought to mind exactly how long it’s been since I had someone to wrap their arms around me and love me; someone that needed me just as much as I needed them.
I recalled the moments of life shared as we laughed and planned and hoped together. I recalled the togetherness, the oneness; the partnership and the moments our hearts were open, free to love fully. I recalled the joy we shared in being together when tomorrow didn’t matter and we feared nothing.
Without a warning, the hurt resurfaced and hit me like a freight train. I was reminded of how one incident shattered our lives. How a lie changed us forever. How trust was thrown out the window and how I was easily replaced.
Tears fell uncontrollably and it became hard to breath. Suicide crawled his slimy way to my mind and whispered his sweet answer... “If you did this…he’d finally believe you…”
The hurt continued to rip deep into the hidden parts of my heart; sharp pain began to shoot through my chest. I grabbed a tissue and continued to cry.
Overwhelmed with hurt, angrily I looked to God and said, “What are you doing? You know I’m not that strong.”
And he answered, “I know, but I am.”
~Wow! What an amazing God we serve. His love conquers all. When you realize you’re walking through a fire…just remember that God never said it would be easy but he promised to be right there with us. Don’t stay in your hurt, look up and let God fill you with the love and strength you need to continue walking. Remember that God wastes nothing! There is a mighty purpose for walking through your fire, he will use every tear!
English Standard Version (©2001) Psalms 23:4
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Here's a song for your troubles...
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